[There's a long delay before Shelke answers. Finally she decides, this is a private call as far as she can tell, so...why not.]
When I was nine years old I was kidnapped because the Shinra thought that my abilities were interesting. I was tortured and experimented on, my body broken and changed to make me 'better' only to be left nearly ruined. And then I spent ten years trapped in their prison full of lunatics and monsters, forced to do their bidding or be killed.
I hoped for so long that someone might rescue me. Until I realized no one was ever going to come. If I had let myself feel, I would have gone as insane as they were.
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Date: 2016-12-13 01:38 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2016-12-13 02:25 am (UTC)Indifferent?
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Date: 2016-12-13 02:37 am (UTC)you never get excited??
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Date: 2016-12-13 02:40 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-12-13 03:22 am (UTC)that's kind of alarming!!
we gotta fix this because honestly getting excited about stuff is the best part of life!!
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Date: 2016-12-13 03:31 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2016-12-13 04:47 am (UTC)They can all come from excitement that fails.
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Date: 2016-12-13 09:15 pm (UTC)so you can't just blame being excited about something for the bad feelings that might happen
it's not excitement's fault!!
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Date: 2016-12-15 03:51 pm (UTC)[Which is why Shelke generally just tried not to feel anything.]
I do not just blame excitement.
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Date: 2016-12-15 06:50 pm (UTC)because if the answer is joy and stuff we've got a huge problem!!
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Date: 2016-12-15 07:48 pm (UTC)It is necessary.
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Date: 2016-12-17 10:55 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-12-19 06:28 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-12-20 05:46 am (UTC)a lot of people have lived really rough lives here?? like this guy I know died in an explosion
and he's still good at emotions!!
Shelke is a little overdramatic.
Date: 2016-12-20 05:59 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-12-20 06:31 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-12-20 06:36 am (UTC)When I was nine years old I was kidnapped because the Shinra thought that my abilities were interesting. I was tortured and experimented on, my body broken and changed to make me 'better' only to be left nearly ruined. And then I spent ten years trapped in their prison full of lunatics and monsters, forced to do their bidding or be killed.
I hoped for so long that someone might rescue me. Until I realized no one was ever going to come. If I had let myself feel, I would have gone as insane as they were.
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Date: 2016-12-21 05:17 am (UTC)oh
I'm really sorry
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Date: 2016-12-21 05:19 am (UTC)Just that you understand. The things you assume are wonderful, excitement and hope, they are not always the blessing you think they are.
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Date: 2016-12-21 05:49 am (UTC)so I'm sorry you had to live through that
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Date: 2016-12-21 05:52 am (UTC)But one way or another it is over now, at least.
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